It seems particularly apt to have a post from Mrs M. about the different faces of anxiety in January, as this month is often linked with the Janus, the Roman God of war and peace or the beginning and end of conflict. In this guest blog, Mrs M. describes how we can recognise the signs of anxiety in children with autism, and then some really practical strategies for managing anxiety. It is an honest and inspirational piece. Please do share and comment.
For my son, anxiety is part of who he is.
In fact, it is as much a part of his make up as the colour of his hair or the freckles on his nose that come out every summer. It is his constant companion and is far more than just a bit of worry that can be soothed away with some reassuring words of encouragement.
It is with him forever, and it is important we take it seriously as it plays such a huge part in his life.
It was also actually one of the first indicators to us as he was growing up, that something wasn’t quite as it should be. The older he got the bigger his worries seemed to grow. But at the time we didn’t realise that all the different behaviours we were seeing were driven by this hidden force lurking inside him. And the more we tried to overcome it and force him into situations that we thought he should be able to cope with, the worse we made it; because we didn’t take his anxiety seriously. We didn’t realise how much his anxiety was controlling his emotions and behaviours.
So we bowed down to pressure.
Pressure to make him conform because he looked so ‘normal.’ Pressure from professionals who didn’t have the answers we were so desperately seeking. And pressure from ourselves to live up to the perfect family image that everyone expected us to be.
Pressure to fit our son into societies neat little boxes.
But in fact, we quickly learnt that the key to us being able to move forward as a family unit was far more about us learning to accept and embrace his differences as much as anything else. Learning to accept that his anxiety was part of who he was, and it wasn’t going anywhere. And after all that we had to learn how to unpick his behaviour to see what was really going on underneath the surface.
And so out of necessity his anxiety became our constant companion. We have reluctantly learnt to share our lives with it, having to let it into our routines and family time. Allowing it to dictate the ebb and flow of daily life like the tide. It’s inevitable when your child has anxiety linked with their autism, there is no hiding from it…ever! So, we learnt to accept that it is part of what makes him so unique and roll with it.
Sometimes we can all see his anxiety, even people that don’t know him inside out like I do. It is etched on his face, in his body language and it seeps out of every muscle in his movements. There’s no mistaking it. It controls him like a puppet master making him bite his nails, compels him to ask the same questions again and again with nothing being able to satisfy its hunger. It makes him pace around the room like a caged tiger, and at times it completely takes over his body. Primal instincts kick in which trigger the fight or flight reflex in his body.
But this anxiety also has a darker more secret side.
The side that not everyone sees. This kind of anxiety disguises itself and takes many forms, and shows many faces.
This cruel force can morph and change costumes at its own will. Like a shape shifter it controls our children and confuses the adults who are fooled by its whim. It becomes hyperactivity, violence, exhaustion, fear, illness, or demand avoidance to name but a few. All these facets of our children are driven by anxiety. It can hide and pounce as children learn to mask their emotions and fit in to the confusing world around them.
And so, we find ourselves putting unhelpful labels on our children to give meaning to behaviours that we don’t understand.
High needs, challenging behaviour, low functioning, disruptive, hyper, impulsive, normal, obsessive, high functioning, passive, aggressive, avoidant, or even naughty.
But I fear that these labels only serve to box our kids in.
Making us set rigid expectations for them in a world that should actually be far more flexible for children on the spectrum. These labels can lead us to make assumptions and take things for granted. Not seeing the potential pitfalls and variables that affect autistic children so intensely. Leading us to miss the hidden anxiety that is so often driving so many of these behaviours that society wants to put a label on.
When I think what we really should be doing is looking at how we, as the adults, respond to our children’s anxiety. How we reflect on our own practice, honestly, and without fear of criticism or failure. Believe me when I say that over the years I have made many mistakes. I have got things wrong, and spent many a sleepless night thinking how I could have handled things better. But when I think about it, those mistakes taught me so much.
So as practitioners, we need to be asking ourselves if we were flexible enough (because when fire meets fire no one wins I can tell you!) We also need to be sharing good practice, sharing our successes and our failures. Working collaboratively with parents, and talking to colleagues openly. Bouncing ideas off each other in order to support these vulnerable children effectively as a team.
We need to see beyond the labels.
Understanding that often their behaviour is telling us, in the only way that they know how to, that something is wrong. And often if sensory issues can be ruled out, then the controlling factor is usually anxiety in disguise.
Real, deep, life defining anxiety.
Anxiety about failing, anxiety about not understanding, anxiety about the social interactions and rules they can’t make sense of. Anxiety about filtering out the acute sensory overload that is probably taking up all their energy. Anxiety about holding it all together and that sense of implosion that is building in their tummies as the hours tick by until home time. And even anxiety about being anxious. It’s exhausting for them, and often tricks us adults into thinking that the issues lie elsewhere…
- It can make kids isolate themselves and withdraw often getting overlooked, confusing us to think that all is well, but whose parents report seeing a different child at home. The ‘Jekyll and Hyde’ kid that you can’t make sense of.
- It could be the real cause of the child in class that often complains of headaches or feeling sick, even asking to go the toilet more often than they probably should.
- It’s probably the source of all those delay tactics when it’s time to settle down to work, the real reason that a child seems to have a knack of finding lots of distractions around the classroom, rather than them simply being fidgety or hyper.
- It could be controlling the child in class with their head down on the table, chewing their sleeve, scratching their arm or rocking back and forward on their chair. The one you may think is just being stubborn.
- It’s almost definitely ruling over the kid that needs extra support as they often refuse to even attempt their work, and regularly disrupt the class because that is better than them facing the embarrassment of failure in front of everyone. You see anxiety breeds low self-esteem and the need for self-preservation.
- It can also be the real reason that a child can struggle to follow verbal instructions in the classroom, and leads them to regularly forget what they are meant to do when the lesson starts. Not simply because they have poor concentration or just don’t listen.
- And I can say with certainty that anxiety will be the puppet master pulling the strings as a child gets frustrated and explodes in class, often with no awareness of who is around them and how they can hurt themselves or other people in the process. It throws chairs and swears in anger, and it leaves children and staff confused and scared in many schools up and down the country. That child is probably overflowing with stress chemicals pumping through their bodies. Going from one panic attack to another in a constant primal state of flight or fight… due to anxiety.
So instead of labels…
I think we need to be open minded and far more flexible.
We need to see beyond the behaviour, and play detective to peel away the hidden faces of anxiety that is often driving our children’s behaviour.
Perhaps by making behaviour analysis tools part of our daily practice, so we can begin to really understand what’s going on with these kids and break down those walls of hidden anxiety.
We need to think outside of the box and make real accommodations in the classroom that are meaningful and not just ticking a box for a policy.
We should understand that one size doesn’t fit all, and every child is different. And see things from the child’s perspective and not just our own.
And slowly but surely, these amazing kids will begin to trust us, let down their guard, and their inner anxiety may just have nowhere to hide anymore. No more shadows to lurk behind and no more masks to wear.
(Next month I will look in detail at how sensory issues can affect children behaviour in the classroom as anxiety and sensory issues are often so intrinsically linked it can be hard to unpick at times)
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I came across this on The Mighty. Thank you so very much for writing this. My son has severe Anxiety and it is so hard to explain to people how it is more than just him “worrying” and teaching him to “relax”. He is struggling with school, he has no friends, and every day is a constant battle. I have depression and anxiety as well which just adds to the chaos of our lives.
This brought tears to my eyes. It reminds me of the hard time my son had at school. It makes me wish I had done something more meaningful and helpful for him, earlier.
So sorry you are having a rough time of things, If you want to follow my Facebook page ( just search a slice of autism) and inbox me we can have a chat and I will try and help you however I can
I can relate so much to this article! I cried at parts because it’s 100% my 7 year old daughter- as are so many of the articles I read on here! I’ve been battling to get her assessed for ASD since she was 4 and we have decided to try and fund private assessment as 3 years on we are still nowhere. It’s all highly driven her anxiety- she is in mainstream and although she complies very well her anxiety is through the roof by the time she comes home from school. They don’t see a problem but little things through the day such as biting her fingers, chewing pencils, saying she has a headache etc and then when she gets home she goes into compete meltdown. It’s not just school though, anxiety has become part of our daily lives. It makes her very demand avoidant For example, it’s currently 23.30pm and I’m still trying to get her to sleep but she’s been saying for 2 hours that she has a headache, she’s hungry, she has tummy ache and I’ve finally got it out of her that she’s scared that she will have a bad dream 🙁
Thank you for your brilliant articles and making me feel not so alone in this journey xx
It sounds like your doing an amazing job, well done!
Hi Liz, I will send you an email if that’s ok and we can have a chat?
As a teacher, understanding a situation from the child’s point of view is exactly what I try to do with any child who struggle to fit into expectations of a pre- school/ school. I have found that really listening to them (even if they can’t always articulate the problem clearly) is a good start to understanding. As the blog says, that by doing this I have gained their trust. (In fact an HMI noticed the relationship I had built up with a child with Autism and commented on it last week! What I didn’t realise that at the core of their problems is anxiety so I found this blog very interesting and informative. Thank you.
Wow this article was amazing! So many great points and describes my daughter to a T. I’m fighting this exact battle described with my 10 .5 yr old daughter’s school system in the US. They will not listen and understand the full child not just who they think she is and it’s so frustrating but things are unfortunately getting worse and my daughter is the victim to their ignorance. Please refer me to any other info or articles that will help me to get them to see this part that lives inside her that they don’t see.